I understand what your saying. But its a little too late togo back now. I have nothing here to return to. No house,no car,no belongings,I sold everything I own..which ended up not being worth much, to follow a dream I have had for over a year now. So I have no choice but to make this work. I know its not usa but I have always been able to survive. I am 42 and decided its time to do what I dream instead of being stuck in a rutt for ever.I see perple got old and never did what they dream and its sad.I refuse to not be like that! People waiting around to retire then theyer too old to enjoy life.If it doesnt work out I can always return to usa and start over..I can be a waitress anywhere here. But I do appriciate your concern,and thankyou,but its a bit too late now to turn back!!!